LOVE this song~  Amazing ~ :)
I dedicate this song to Tanja and Jocelyn. 
You make me Smile!!

My heart is not where it wants to be,
It keep telling me so...i chose to ignore it,
but all i want now is to be free,
to stop feeling so confused, to stop struggling.
if only i was brave enough to step up.
to step up and tell the world what my heart screams out each night.
every night dream of the future i desire,
when i wake up each morning and realize it was all a dream,
i return to my usual routine, with no enthusiasm, no courage.

i've been waiting for some one to come and force me to take action
i know that wont happen. but i wish....

i thought i could handle this...
i ignored my honest friends and loving teachers and my caring aunt,
and i stumbled into this world, where people and things are cold and distant.
a world that seem so shallow and emotionless.
a world in which i do not belong.
now all i want is out. to run away.
but i have no energy, no courage to make any more changes.My heart is not where it wants to be,
It keep telling me so...i chose to ignore it,
but all i want now is to be free,
to stop feeling so confused, to stop struggling.
if only i was brave enough to step up.
to step up and tell the world what my heart screams out each night.
every night dream of the future i desire,
when i wake up each morning and realize it was all a dream,
i return to my usual routine, with no enthusiasm, no courage.

i've been waiting for some one to come and force me to take action
i know that wont happen. but i wish....

i thought i could handle this...
i ignored my honest friends and loving teachers and my caring aunt,
and i stumbled into this world, where people and things are cold and distant.
a world that seem so shallow and emotionless.
a world in which i do not belong.
now all i want is out. to run away.
but i have no energy, no courage to make any more changes.

I finally kinda figure out how to work the new xanga. lol
so ...maybe... just maybe i will start posting on here more often.lol
of course there is also Blogger.

the song i posted.. She's Everything.
is my desire. --- if u know what i mean.
even if these feelings are short lived~ 
at least i could truly say, i was loved once.